Psyco Ex, Horny Guy, Another Woman's Hubbie and Me!

Dear Bloggers,

Have you ever felt like you are so darn attractive and talking to the opposite sex always causes you trouble?
Joking about love stuff all the time with guys I know would never fall for me.
I call many many of my guy friends darling, honey or sweetheart all the time cause it's so funny.
Never had problem with that before.
Never thought it would bite me in the ass, but it started to these days.

I think some girls will be sOOo happy to have this kind of thing happens around them.
It's like compliment in a way, you know.
It means you have a certain amount of cuteness that causes the above problem.
Not really like that. It gives me headache and nightmares from time to time.

Anyhow, I will start these messy thing with my psycho ex.
I will refer to him as X then.
Talking about X, for me, is like watching History Channel.
I was 17 when we were a pair.It lasted for a few months before I decided to call it a quit.
I am 27 now. You do the math!
He started to go crazy on me around a month ago after 4-5 years of no contact whatsoever.
He called and asked many questions, tried to catch up with my life after graduation.
Suddenly, out of the blue, he asked me to married him.
I thought he was joking. I was so wrong. He was not kidding!
He asked me three times that day if it would be ok for us to get married.
He even said he would kidnapped me from my room if he had to.
Of course I said NOooo! Even if he kidnap me the answer would still be NO.
I bet I told him I knew it in my heart that I meant to be with foreign gentleman (either James Blake or My Paul!)
He was kinna upset about that. WHAT THE FUCK!

I know it right then, something really wrong happened. He had brain damage.
I knew for sure. What would be a reasonable explanation for his action.
He left a very secure CAREER with Giant Japanese car company to open a grocery.
He called me after a decade to propose and got angry to hear that I was not gonna married him. If that's not crazy, then what it was?

Well, that was not all. He called me once again last week to argue with me.
He said all the things that I never imagined I would hear from a nice boy I used to date. Let's see the conversation below:

Amy: I will go to either Canada or England to study and will look for a job there.
X: To look for husband? (Amy: Fuck YOu!!!)

Amy: I don't like fair complexion it makes people look weak.
X: You just said that cause you have brown skin, right?

Amy: I am a different person now. I'm not that 17-year-old girl you used to date no more. I have seen so many things, been to many places and my life perspective has changed. And I know I can be on my own now without help from any guys.
X: Yeah, right!

So I told him to stop calling me if he wanted nothing but saying shit about my life. He knew I was mad so he said good bye then hung up.
That's psycho number one. I feel sad actually, to see how life treats someone and turns a nice, sincere boy to a psycho monster.
All I can do is hope he would stop being a dick and realize how great he was.

Wow! what a long story...don't think we have enough space to tell you about other guys today.
I'll come back some time to tell you about those guys then.

With Love
Amy

Dear Koppers

Well, we saw what happened that day...
All I have to say is "Inzaghi, you are so DEAD!"

Amy >=O

So Cited!

Dear Bloggers

In only 5 hours, my Liverpool will make yet history again.
I only hope I would shed a happy tear tonight.

I talk about football eagerly all the time.
I just love the game so much since I was in junior high.
It's been thirteen years already.

Many people think it's unusual for girls to like football.
Some say girls only like football because of football players look!
That's insulting! Some girls do like football for the fact that it's one of the most amazing sport games to watch. (such as ME!)

Well, basically, this is just me dropping by to make sure you will help me pray on this one.
I'll catch up with you guys later.

Good Luck Koppers!
Amy

My Wish List

Dear All..

It's kinna crazy but I'm gonna put list of songs that I'm desperately seeking for a long long time to complete my Amy Favourite.
I've got many many songs so far esp. from Multiply members.
Thank you you guys!!! Kiss Kiss!!! Love Ya!
Then now I'm addicted to it and want more and more songs.
And hope that putting wish list here might help me get those songs.
(Dirct link please or http://amyamp.multiply.com)

I love you came to late : Joey McIntyre
I'll be waiting : Brother to Brother
Where you are : Rahsaan Patterson
If You Walk Away : Peter Cox
All I Want : Sky (or any song)
Once in a Blue Moon : Sydney Forest
Forever With You : Portrait
Shy Girl : O Town
With Every Beat of My Heart : Dear Mom
To Stay : Breeze
Let this love begins : Caught In The Act

If anyone can help me find these songs..will be really really appreciate it.

Thanks In Advance!!!!

Amy

P.S. There will be more to come I'm sure!

Never Been More True

Please forgive me...

I am talking, complaining, yalbing WAY too much about my plan to get out of this God forsaken place.
(I think it's the perfect name to call a place where you can see dead bodies floating along the river once in a while.)
I'm gonna stop complaining now...with my co-workers at least.
Most of them are not to be trusted. It's dog eats dog world here.
And it's definately not a place for a blunt girl like me.

Anyhow, I was sent to the pier a few hours ago.
It was so dark and so dangerous to escort some of the VERYYYYYYY VIP complimentary guests.(AKA stay at the-5-star for free cause they are travel magazine writers. That's another reason I want to be a famous writer!)
It was against all the border laws and I could get shot easily by Burmese soldiers to use international river after 6 PM.
However, my camp manager did not give a damn.
All he said was it's important for these guests to check in by boat!!!
What the FUCK!! What about my life then? Is it worth anything at all?
Guess we know the answer very well, right?
(Well, to be fare, at least he showed his responsibility by going to the sacary pier with us but that's not really helping.)

Well, I talked to one of a few people here that I trust about the shit.
She told me if I woke up and hated to come to work so much, I needed to stop whining and started to look for jobs elsewhere.
Looing for job elsewhere seems so easy but that's the problem my friends.
There are no jobs elsewhere for me at the moment.
This particular job I'm doing is finacially nice...you know.
And the fact that I can't find other jobs that are equally financially rewarding is killing me, slowly.
That's the cause of all my sicknesses...physically and mentally.
(eyes infection, migrane, stomach ache, skin allegy, tooth decay, home sickness, unhappiness waves that hit me again and agian etc.)

I am so bored of this thing, still can't seem to go nowhere.
I'm just...stuck. I need to shut down my brain quick, in order to protect myself.
If I do that I might at least find peace at night and smile when I wake up.
It will be a terrible time I know for sure.
It will be a very very terrible thing to endure but I have to deal with it.
I will send even more applications to many many places in the world where I can be truly happy with my life.
I will send applications to all the places that will cost me fortune just to apply.
I will send applications to UK, USA, Australia..esp. USA so I can live a freedom life once again.
Hope I will find my way out of this whole thing eventually.
Hope it won't be too long to find the way out.

Wish me luck you guys...that's what I really really need now.

Thanks!

Amy

P.S. Tiny thing that put a tiny smile on my face. There is this young guy who had a dream about me...naked!! Should I puke or should I smile and be flattered. It's kinna grose right? By the way, he is kinna 'almost' cute.

I'm Pathetic...Literally!

To whom it may concern...

I think I'm about to lose my mind.
I had love relate dreams for three night in a role.
It was so real and I was kinna enjoy being in a relationship.
I had adream about very beautiful white flowers for wedding.
I also had dream about being someone girlfriend.
Then last night I went on a date with some guy I don't even remember.
Well, I was so into him. As far as I remember, he is really really gorgeous.

Guess I was single for too long and my head started to play tricks on me.
It happens to other people too..I think.
When you want something and you have been waiting for that thing for too long, in order to make you happy again, your brain will sort of create the surreal perfect world to satisfy you.
Kinna make sense isn't it.
I think it Freudism...you know Sigmund Freud.
(Do I spell his name correctly? What the heck!)

OK, what I'm ganna do now is to just go out there and get myself a boyfriend.
Yeah! I think I'm gonna do that.
I will be in the couplehood soon.
I think!!!??

Well, let's wait and see.
Amy

Amy and The Camp

Hey!

Here are some pics of me being the guest at the Tented Camp.
Cheers!

Amp




More of the camp pics at my multiply...
http://amyamp.multiply.com/