Back from the Battlefield!

I'm back!
I sat for IELTS exam yesterday and it was...hmm...I love to say it was great...but that would be a lie.
It went okay actually, not so good not so bad.
(but definately not GREAT!)
What I want to say is it was not as scary as I thought.
At least, I had no problem writing 2 essays on time!
Somehow, I also believe that I nailed some parts of that test too.
And that's my friends, was truly awesome.

I was litterally drove myself crazy.
It was not that terrible at all...really.
I think after this very incident, I would have to be less paranoid.
It's such a waste of time worrying about something that still not happen.
Like future, for instance, worrying tooOo much about it won't help you at all.
Just enjoy this moment...present moment.
Because you don't want to look back and say "Gee, I shoulda, woulda, coulda done this done that."
What's done is done, no return, no nO nO No nO.
Trust me on this one history never repeated itself.
I've learned that the hard way and still on my way to fully recovered from that.
So be aware of the present time, the very moment you're at.
That's the easiest way to live happily.

Anyway, the IELTS test result will be issued on June 7th.
We'll have to see if my expected 7.5 band score will be achieved.

Bye for now. A party to go tonight!

Amy Smiley =)

IELTS

Hello World!

I'm back!
I'm healthy again...sort off.Well, root canal thing is still bugging me.
The worst part is...another one of my teeth is about to give me the same gift!
Two root canals, lots of pain killers and definately more teeth doctor!
Dee Ae Emm En...Damn!

Well, the biggest change is about to happen soon.
The first step I take is...drum rolls please...I'm taking IELTS exam in 2 weeks.
May 25th, 2006 is the day.
It's such a nerve-racking for me.
So worried I won't be able to pass band 5...
I want band 7.5...so I can do pretty much anything with that.
Less than 7-7.5, is nothing.
It won't be useful for me at all! I guess!

So it's crucial to do a good job on that one, if I want to take the next step.
(The next step to go 'Inter' again.)
The thing is everybody seems to believe in my 'potential.'
The fact that I was a pretty smart student kinna give them the impression.
And that's really scared the shit out of me.
Cause I don't even believe I can do that.
I have been away from text books for soOooo long.
Like a few days ago when I tried to write a report from the graph given, I had to open the example page and immitated some sentenses to write a band 5 report.
That's not good at all!
Seriously...I'm way too dumb to be confident.

But then again, if they believe I can do the test, I should probably do the same.
Believe in my hidden or forgotten 'Potential.'
I know it will be SoOoo darn hard.
Hey...I managed to survive so many ordeal before, right, so IELTS test shouldn't be THAT HARD, if I work my butts off.
I hope. ={

Well, that's kinda nice.
Still...loads of study to do, lots of old tests to practice and definately millions of prayers to pray everynight...one time a night at least.
And I only got 2 weeks left...so little time so much to do!
Dee Ae Emm En...Damn!

Okay Amy...I bet you'll be fine after all.
Just keep praying, practicing, reading then praying again and again.
That should probably do...hopefully.
Better now?

Well, I'll come back for updates.
If you don't hear from me after the test...check the nuts house.
I guess that's where I might dwell.
PEACE!!

Amy