26 th Birth Day

Good-Bye 25, Say Hi! 26
Yes, I'm officially 26 years old now.
I don't know what to expect at the age of 26.
(Since the 25th year life was pretty sucky...got kicked out of 2 airline interviews, warned for being loud and rude, missed first Christmas as a Christian and on top of that lose my beloved grandma just 4 days before Christmas.)
Hope the age will filled with Godly experiences, wonderful adventures, colorful career path, and the never ending fun and happiness.

Should I add LOVE & RELATIONSHIP on my wish list too?
Tricky question...maybe I should...don't you think?
I mean, I'm old and STABLE enough to be someone's girlfriend now. I guess!
OK. let's do it...let's hope this year is the year I say SO LONG single and Nice to Meet You couplehood!
Yeah, I think I want to start a relatiopnship this year.
Afterall, Joey is already told me what to look for, right?
Tall, Dark Brown Hair, Brown Eyes with AMERICAN accent and letter 'B'
That's what Joey wants for us.
That's what I'm gonna look for in a guy.
In three years...3 years only, I'll be settling down.
Freaky but kinna exciting to think about.

OK hope you can see a good change 26th brings already right?
I'm back to be annoyingly cheerful and hopeful again.
Good things happen to good people right?
Thanks my friend Auy for her useful comment.

And of course Happy Birth Day Ms Amy
This time, you'll get it all.

=)

P.S. My mind is made up now. The 26th year of my life is going to be a great year. Even if it's not, I'll work my butts off to make it wonderful and memorable. From now on the year will be officailly known as 'The Wonderful Year of Happiness for Amy.' Nice!

The Cycle of Life

Cannot believe it...
The hideous cycle has started again.
I'm so Sick..sick..sick, physically and mentally as well.
What makes this round different from zillion other times is I know exactly where it all begins.
That guy I call Dad and the shitty company I'm working for.
How unlucky a girl can be?
I mean...are there any other human beings share this lousy so-called life?
Decisions I made always turn out to be wrong or even worse become a disaster.
(eg. choosing this company instead of going to Dubai...see I'm a loser!)

Okay, I'll try to clarify what I've been talking about as much as I can.
I have been so stres out for months now about career change stuff.
Then my EX-Dad stepped in liked a knight on a white horse.
'Go work abroad if you like. I'll pay for everything.'He said.
That's why I took IELTS and recieved pretty good band.
That's why I applied for many many jobs in ski resorts for the coming winter season and still applying for more of FOREIGN companies.
Then suddenly around a month ago the guy freaked out on me and told me he won't pay for anything even if those places hire me.
And that's when my sicky mind became really ill and trouble.

As you all know, unhealthy mind equal unhealthy body.
The list of my illnesses are as follow...constipation, ulcers both stomach and intestines, migrane, regular headache, sleepiness when doing everything, insomnia once I go to bed, rashes, pimples, teeth PAIN, diarreah, neck pain, mood swing, dizziness, swollen stomach and the cherry on top of my list...no period for almost 2 months and I'm not pregnant! I'm going to have hormones injection within a few days if 'my friend' still ignore me.

Mom is so concerned. She encourages me to do yoga or at least exercise.
I don't have time for that. Yoga is the worse.
I could not bend like those people. It won't help me at all.
Yoga would only cause me more pain.
About excercise, I'm gonna have to wait till World Cup ends.
(They replace my excercise program with World Cup review and analysis.)
But if it really help I might start jumping around the house this evening.
I mean I'm not afraid to die, just not willing to go now that's all.

Sorry you have to read this.
I'm just so full of...shit right now and there's no place to go.
Crying in my bed every night, being angry at God for this whole thing won't help no more.
Well, my friend told me my luck will change.
I'm gonna hold on to that one for now.
If the hormones they're about to inject won't help...I'll shoot myself!
Damn!

Amy