My Health

Well, Hello There

I have some news to share.
As you know I planed to lose some weight...again.
I did lose 2-3 kgs.
(I believe I look a bit thinner these days.)
Well, of course that's not what I want to share.
It's way toOOo boring, even for me.
The thing was in order to lose some weight, I needed help.
That's why I went to diet clinic.
The doctor gave me some pills...diet pills to be exact.
I was doing fine for 2-3 weeks after taking those pills.
But when the doctor thought that I should be droping more weight, she gave me the new pills.
The pills were so strong I could not stand straight.
I thought it would get better after awhile but it didn't.
After 7 days of taking the strong pills I was moody, restless, dizzy, havibg really bad headache and sweating like a pig.
I knew there was something really wrong going on with my body.

The worse night was Friday 7th, I was literally blacked out for 2-3 minutes.
I remembered it vaguely, I was walking to the front door cause I heard my cat maewing outside.
I felt the world spinning so fast and that was all I remembered.
The next thing I knew I was lying on the ground outside of the house.
Mom and my sister were shocked!
They were screaming my name so loud, asking me what was going on, what was happened, why I was lying on the ground etc.
I could not answered any of the questions. I could not control my mouth.
It was shaking so hard.

After draging me back inside and put some ice on my right eye brow, mom and my sister told me they heard a bang and me calling for help.
I did not remember any of that.
That made me scared.
What if I fell from a high staircase and got myself seriously injured and never got up again?
Besides the black out thing, I also got bruised eye brow, injured back muscles,
almost broken ankle etc.
That's the reason why I would stop using diet pills forever.
They are too dangerous for everyone.
From now on I won't starve myself to death just to be thin like other girls.(Tyra banks said that on VH1.)
At least not anymore.
I don't have problem having a little bit more fat that other girls.
I shouldn't listen to what people say about being thin and all.
We are all beautiful just the way we are.
And if we're lucky, some one will find us attractive just the way we are too.
Do not risk your life because you want to be someone you're not.
I've learned this lesson the hard way and I'm so glad I have a chance to share it with you.
Stop hurting yourself, start loving it.
Believe me listening to yourself and please it is way easier than listening to others and try to please every single person.
I hope my post is useful for someone one way or another.
So good luck guys!

Amy =) (getting back on my feet soon!)