Lost and Found

I was invited to join Etihad Cabin Crew Recruitment Interview and screwed up!
I didin't have enough time to prepare for 'GOOD and Perfect' speech.
No wonder why they asked me to leave after an individual interview.
I survived three tasks...grooming check, English Test, Group Discussion and flunk the Individual Interview for being too blunt. Damn You!
I was disappionted of course. It took me three caotic days to get there.
I should have been one of their new cabin crew.
That would probably be the end of the world if the worst thing in the universe didn't happen to me a day after that interview.
My beloved grandma passed away.

It was the worst feeling I have ever felt in my entire life.
I thought losing my cats were so bad but it could not compare to this particular feeling.
It was empty. You wanted to cry but you couldn't.
It felt like someone ripped your heart of your chest..even breathing was so damn hard to do.
There is a hole in your heart now...there's no way you can fill that hole no matter how hard you try.
I know what it's called...Loss. Yes..Loss.
What I regret the most is the fact that I had no chance to say goodbye to her.
My mom and I were on our way to see her when my aunt called and told us that Grandma passed away.

My grandma was one strong old lady.
She could walk, rode a bike, cooked and did pretty much anything.
That's why we were so worry when the doctor told us she had cancer a year ago.
We did everything we could to keep her healthier and live longer.
Last year was the worst year cause she couldn't ride her bike anymore.
She could not walk, exercise and cook liked she used to.
It was a difficult year for her.
On Tuesday December 20 2005, she took an afternoon nap and never woke up.(around 4 something P.M.)
Just like that she went to haeven without good bye.
The only thing that makes me feel better is she went peacefully.
she lives in heaven now, a place where no cancer, weakness, haedache or whatever disease could harm her.
She is heathy again. She is fine and free just like Paba said.

One thing I learn from my Grandma's death is if you love someone, let them know.
If you want to do something, do it.
If you want to be anything..anything at all...try, or at least die trying.
Don't let anything stops you from going where you want to go, doing what you want to do or being what you want to be.
Learn from your pain and move on.
That's all you can do when someone you love dearly has gone.
There's no need to forget them, remember them.
Keep them close to your heart and your love ones will help you through the darkest time of your life.

Rest in Peace Grandma, we're all gonna be fine.
Love You Always

Amp =)

What a Terrible Day It Is!!!!

Damn Damn Damn!!

It started with 1/2 hour of waiting for that silly bus to pick me up.
(I was so angry at God for not sending me the lousy transportation. Well, there will be a really long confession. Hope He forgive me...Please...forgive me. I'm begging you.)
Followed by a really big pile of work.
Then there is this game Crush Calculator...I sent link to my crushes just to find out that Beans was gay..the biggest gay in the universe and P.K. liked someone else!
If that's not sucks enough...this guy who happens to be the love of my friend's life had secret crush on me.

Damn Damn Damn!!
Just love a day like today...
Really really do >:O

I'm soooo gonna end up alone.

Amy