Life is SUCKS!!!

I officially hate my life.
Seriously, there is no goodness left for me at all.
Everything I hate is coming to me...every freaking thing I hate.
Want example...being fat again (SCREAM!!!), recieving no reply from those silly airline jobs I applied for, falling for someone who is not available and doesn't even like me, being so poor that selling my internal organs might be the only way to survive the oil price crisis, having parents that most of the time don't understand me, the worst of the worse is stucking here in Thailand when all I want is to be anywhere but here!!!!
Darnit! Darnit! Darnit! Darnit! Darnit!
Can life get any worse...for me?
Is that a trick question?
Hell..Yeah!
This is me we're talking about, right?

Well, I'm just being sacastic you know.
Of course I too want a good life.
After all everyone deserves that, I guess!?

Gatta go now...hope the next post is less bad.

Amy >:(

When I Thought My Life is Getting Better...

Hi!

Well, guess what has happened...I failed again.
EK starts calling people for an interview.
I'm not one of those people.

Again this shit happen to me.
My life will never be better.
I'm sure about that now.
Nothing good will happen to me.

That's all I want to say.
Hope life treat you better.

Amy

P.S. My Life Quote:
"You don't understand! I could had class. I coulda been the contender. I could've been somebody, instead of a bum, which is what I am."
On the Waterfront, 1954

After a while Crocodile. Life is getting Better!

Hello!
This is me Amy again.
Well, my first plan of "flying away" from my job has failed.
I went to Academy Fantasia audition and of course there are someone else better than me. Yeah! better than me! =P
That's not really my dream anyway.
I want to go abroad being a part of the show will keep me here.
And I don't want that.

Oh Oh don't get me wrong I love Thailand so much.
It's just...life is hard here...my life is soooo hard living here and I want out.
My time in America was so great and I miss that life.
I will never ever find that kind of freedom and happiness here in my home country.
Irony isn't it?
This time if I have a chance to go back there, I would not come back unless I get my greencard.
I will also try to take Mom, my sister and my cats with me.
I would be extreamly happy!!

Anyway, I'm still waiting for some replies from the two airlines I applied for earlier this year.
I hope they call me and like and of course hire me.

Life is getting better and better and better.
That's my believe.
God has good plan for me.
No matter how sad life is at the moment, tomorrow will always be a better day!
Guarantee!!! =)

Amy

Darn, Heart Break!

Hi There!
It's Amy again. (Who else can it be!)
You know what...the boy is taken!
Darn it! Darn it! Darn it!
I was kinna chatting with the boy on MSN yesterday...and somehow he told me he had a girlfriend!
Darn it! Darn it! Darn it!
He met that girl 4 months ago!
I wanna scream!
I just hate it! I mean...you know...I fall for someone things look good for awhile.
Next thing I know he becomes gay or has a girlfriend!!!
Darn it! Darn it! Darn it!
It's a pattern...it's how my so called 'LOVE' always end up.
Like I said it's a pattern.
That's the main reason why I'm still single.
I'm not being picky or anything.
I guess...I believe that's Karma from I have no idea when or where.
It doesn't make any sense!
Why do we have to pay or take any responsibility for something we can't even remember we did!!!
Darn it! Darn it! Darn it!

Gotta Go.
I'm so sick of being lonely.

Amy =(

P.S. Song of the day... Lonely No More=Rob Thomas

Boy, Interupted

Well...How Dy?
I feel pretty good actually.
What can I say...hmm..I don't feel THAT good.
I don't even know how to start telling you this.
I think...I feel that...I believe that I'm falling for someone.
There it is. I just said it, have I?
I have been out of this thing for so long like...2-3 years I guess!
Yes, it's been almost 3 years since the last time I believe I fall for someone outside the Screen.
Now the boy is sitting a few steps away.
It's just...I don't know I like the fact that I'm falling for someone again.
It keeps me alive you know.
But the fact that I have been away from the battle field for so long makes this feeling somehow rather scary for me.
I don't know...I just don't know.
It's complicated.
I know the boy has someone.
With his looks and his sense of humor and his guitar...I bet lots of girls are more than happy to line up for him.
What I'm feeling right now is surely one-sided thing.
And that's just so sad so sad that I have to write the story on my blog. =(
I wish I could just snap my fingers and get rid of this feeling for good.
Of course I cannot do that.
Darn it!!
What should I do with him?
I hope the Airline accept me or the next best thing to be on Academy Fantasia so I don't have to deal with this feeling again. (Loser!!)
That would be the perfect perfect solution for this messy messy situation.
OH....DARN IT!!!!!!

Gatta Go!
I hate how I feel!
Darn it!

Amy =O