We are the Chiampion!!!!!! =)

Hey! Great News, Great News!!!!
We won the UEFA Champion League 2005! **=)**
Thanks God for making one of my long time dreams came trough.
You have no idea how long I have been waiting for the day to came.
Ten years...yes I have been The Kop for 10 years.
I bet no one understand how happy we feel unless you are one of us.
We are back!
Our glorious days are back.
And it will get better and better each day!!!

The match was such a miracle.
Milan had 3 while we had none after the first half.
Lots of people gave up after they saw that score.
I was so glad The REAL fan didn't.
They started to sing "You'll Never Walk Alone" so loud and believe it or not they did help brought up the team spirit!!
I wish I was there so I could celebrate with the rest of my fellow friends!
But of course, I was at home screaming and crying. =)

Nothing can really bring me down now..for another while even the fact that my career plan is still...well...sucks and messy.
The fact that my childhood dream finally came through gives me this...so called enlightenment.
If my Liverpool, after all the walk on rocky road, could win that match with such a handsome result makes me realize that I, too, can win anything I set my mind up for!!!!

I know what I am writing does not really make sense for some people but I'm on high and it just...amazing.
That's what I can say now.
No matter where the road takes The Kop, I sure follow.
Nothing can take this happiness away from me cause after all I know I'll never walk alone.

The Kop Forever and Ever
Amy =)

It's Amy =)

Dear Blogger

It's Amy as usaual.
I'm back after a really LONG pause.
I wasn't really myself...you know the pills I was taking and the flu and fever I just recovered from and of course th disappoint from my first SERIOUS attempt to become a flight attendant.
Again..no oppotunity to go for an interview.
I wish they could at least call me for English Test and Interview.
They were shallow for judging people from their covers aka. photo.
I'm not a photogenic person then what no chance forever!!!
Darn! I hate that! =(

Anyway, I recently found another way to ruin my self-respect...Academy Fantasia II.
I'll try my best not to give up before they tell me "You know what we like you but you gotta go!"
If that really happen...I would be ok..I guess.
After all ou can't lose what you never had, right?

Gotta go now.
Wish Me Luck, I really need it!

Amy

Just Drop By

I thought I was going to post something new today but I have some errand to do...
So I guess, I'll see you later.
Just want you to know I'm still alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HEE HA!!!!

Amy =)

Qatar Airlines turns me down!
Your lost, my friend!!!

Sad Sad Sad =(

I am so sad.
I am so so sad.
I am so so so sad.
I was crying my eyes out last night.
For what reasons...I have no idea.
Everything seemed to be a perfect reason to cry.
I was taking to God too.
I told him everything I felt about the life I'm living.
I basically told him how much I hated my life.
I have the worst parents, job, health, self-esteem, love life, personal life etc.
I could not find anything in life that I want to treasure.
I thought my Mom was my best friend but I was wrong.
Everything was always about her. She got angry at me for saying "I'm working everyday to support you."
How can you get mad at your daughter for speaking her mind esp when that thing was the truth.

I have been taking care of my family since I graduated.
It has been over two years now.
I have to take care of my family expenses for over two years.
My Dad stopped paying for the family expenses after I got my Kingsmill job.
He assumed that I could take all the responsibility by myself but he was wrong.
I can't take it...no more. I should be living a life...my life not their lives.
I can't go anywhere with my friends anymore because I can't afford that.
I am the oldest 24 years old woman in the world.

I had plan back when I was in high school to find a job and took post-graduate program so working won't be too boring but I can't do that.
If I took that program, we won't have anything to eat...and we then will die.
So doing what I want like studying, taking trips with riends or doing not-well-paid job is selfishness.
I would never be able to live my life as long as I can't provide my family a good fortune.
That's a life I'm living right now.

I would be so much better and easier for me to deal with this whole thing if I have someone for me, someone to believe, someone to keep me warm, someone who never ever leave me alone, someone I can rely on forever....of course there is no one like that for me, at least.
So I turn to God. He was the only one I can think of in these times of hardness.
I pray every night for better life even though I don't even know if he can hear my prayers.
I can't stop believing in him. I can't. He is my only hope now.
I don't know how long does it take for God to finally hears your prayers and rescues you from your darkest days...I hope it's not too long.
I'm too tired to wait that long.
Still I have this tiny little part of me that somehow believe that someday in the future when I come back to this entry I'll be laughing my ass off instead of crying my eyes out.
That day WILL come. It MUST come cause I have been such a good girl and asking for happiness...to be able to live my life shouldn't be too much.
I'll wait for that day. And I'll never stop believing no matter how sucks my life is!!!

Hope you have better life!!
Be Happy!

Amy =(