Photoshoot

Dear Bloggers

Well, I went to Chiang Khong the other day with my boss.
He is one hell of a photographer!
It was a great chance for me to have my photo taken since we had the same day off.
That day was a little bit cloudy but my boss said it would be ok for the photoshoot.
Well, we did went to Chiang Khong and got many great pictures.




He did said at one point that it was the hardest thing in his life to take my pictures!
I have to admit it, all I can do is funny faces.
I am a funny lady.
That's why you'll never see me on a cover of a magazine or on any big screen.
I do post some of the pics here.
I think I look nice...don't you think?

Amy

Peace Will Come Inside So Quiet

Dear Blogger

My life has been so mess up for months.
It started with my broken ankle, several break ups with the same guy, my cat's injured ear, my sister worst European journey, my dad craziness and my sucky health.
I was hopeless from time to time.
I was sort of happy from time to time.
I feel so peaceful sometimes...not so often but sometimes.

I like the feeling, feeling of peacefulness.
It feels so nice when peace comes inside.
The world seems so small and not scary at all.
I felt that way last night and felt it agian this afternoon while walking back from the far end of The Camp.
I knew right then, the certain feeling I love the most came from within.
Our mind is the best thing God gives us.
It can lead you just about anywhere beyond your imagination.

I think I need to say "Thanks" to Miss Chu, the principle.
She sort of help me with this.
I was inches away from the edge and was ready to jump and be ruined forever.
Then she came for a rescue.
I should have talked to her a long time ago.
Things around me would be easier...
I thank God for the talk.

I'm on my way to be a better person now...at least that what I will do my best.
I will try hard to be nice to everyone I meet...even that other woman.
(Will definately take some time for me to get there, eventually and gracefully.)

Joey was here earlier as well.
He was with me for awhile and I felt peace and saw open doors and never ending happiness that were ahead of me.
Within 2 years..,only 2 years to wait.
I can do that...I am so sure this time.

AT the end of the tunnel, my fulfilled life is waiting.

Amy =)

Emptiness

It feels weird after letting Joey go.

I was mad at him and told him to leave forever.

Now I feel really bad not knowing where he is and if he ever comes back in my life again.

Does it mean all the things he said has gone too?

That would make the future so gloomy and so scary for me!!!

Hope he still wait for me somewhere.

I miss you Joe!

Your Mama

Dear God

Dear God

This is your sheep, Amy.
I have so many things to say to you.
Some are confessions, words to show how greatful I am and of course some prayers.

I need to tell you that I have been lying to Mommy about my relationship.
I know how she feels about the guy, the relationship and the fact that he's married.
Mom hates it so much cause afterall her love one has been stolen.
I am, on the other hand, is a theif, stealing other woman husband.
I am not pround of that at all.
I am everything Mommy hates. I am everything I hated my whole life.
I am nothing but a low-life whore who is not even good enough to be THE ONE AND ONLY.
But why am I doing it?
Maybe because I look at him and I smile.
My heart beats faster, happier just to think of him.
Being with him, holding him tight is what I want to do.
Is this love? Am I really in love?
Maybe I am. The question is does he love me enough to make me THE ONE AND ONLY?

God, apart from the sad story above, I need to thank you.
I asked for love and you gave it to me.
Not the way I expected though.
But who am I to complain?
It is always better to love and lost than never loved at all, right?
Although it would be nicer to take all the pain of sharing him away...
The ride will be so plaesant without worrying all the time what happen when I'm out of the picture.
That's what kiiling me every waking day.

Then agian you heal my inside.
I have no serious illness (beside unbearable amount of stressfulness.)
I'm glad I'm doing ok, physically.
Thank you for that.
I'm glad my Dad is finally started to realize that I have been having a very hard life providing all the money and other stuff for Mom and my sis.
Hope this me being the head of the house will soften him and he will somehow take some action and make my life easier and happier.
And I'm also so thankful that my sis survived all the tasks you gave her.
She is now on the way to the glory land. Good for her.

Last but not least, some prays from me yours truly.
I pray that you remember to get me out of here in one piece as soon as possible.
It is too painful for me to stay here.
If you can't take me out yet...kindly stop my pain of being another woman.
I can ask you to get her out or make him choose me but walking away is easier.
Afterall, Joe told me the guy would never leave her.
No matter what he says, he loves her and they were made for each other.
They will always be together and I will fade away soon.
That's why I'm begging you God to help me.
Please take me to the place where I can be truly happy.
The place where I can find a HOME for my love, mine only, home for Joey and HOME for me.
I just want the man that always be there when I need him.
A man that I can call my own.
Someone I can have and hold for all my life.
I dont want to share my love with anyone again ever.
Is it too much to ask?
I hope not...

Thank you so much God for your time.
I pray to you in the name of The Lord Jesus Crist.
AMEN

Your Sheep, Amy

Update

OK

It is still a secret.

She went to the apartment and he was sleeping at his friend's room not mine!

We were so close to be busted.

Well, we should be busted so he could just choose between me and her!

Amy

The Most Exciting Part!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear All

The most exciting part of my relationship...the part when that other woman is about to find out!
It has been a secret to her for over 2 months now.

She is looking all over the town for him.
He is sleeping so happily.
I am so freaking out.

Shits about to hit me, right?
Hope I can call him and warn him before we both get killed.
She is unstable and very very very crazy!
I'll come back and update what happen tomorrow!

WISH ME LUCK!!!

God...please help me!
Your Sheep Amy

Mess

Dear Blogger

I have to admit it...
My last post was so lame!
It happened before, you know, posting songs or whatever cause I had nothing to say.
However, it is different this time.
I have WAY too much stories to share and I just don't know where to start.

Well, let's just put it this way...the relationship I have is an unhealthy one.
We broke up 3 times already since we got together 2 months ago.
That other woman of his is moving back to his place and it's killing me just to think what might happen when they are alone together.
Man!!!!I hate that so badly!!!

Anyhow, there are so many things that I need to worry right now.
For instance my little sis is going to Belgium and will spend a nice life there,
I still have no idea where to go after The Golden Triangle since my Swiss plan has been postponed, the worst of the worst of the worst thing is I can't seem to find my Joe anywhere...
It worries me a bit is he already HERE with me?
That would be a disaster!
I'm not ready for that yet...and bet the guy is not ready for my Joe too.
But then again the last time we spoke 'DAD is COMING.' not 'Dad is HERE.'
RIGHT?

Well, we have to wait and see how my story turn out!

Amy