My Very Own "BABY LOVE"

Song of the moment for Ms. Amy!!

"Baby Love"
(feat. Will.I.Am)

I remember like it was yesterday
First kiss and I knew you changed the game
You have me, exactly, well you want it,
And I'm on it

And I ain't ever gonna let you get away
Holdin' hands never made me feel this way
So special, boy it's your, your smile
We so in love
(love)
La la la la
Yeah
We so in love
La la la la la
And I just can't get enough
Of your la la la la love
Yeah we so in love, love
I want you to know
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything

Been a minute and we still holding it down
Butterflies every time you come around
You make me, so crazy
It's crazy, oh baby

And I don't ever wanna be with no one else
You're the only one that ever made me melt
You're special, boy it's your, your style
We so in love

La la la la
Yeah
We so in love
La la la la la
And I just can't get enough
Of your la la la la love
Yeah it's all I'm thinking of
Love, love
I want you to know

You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything

(Yeah)
Everything, everything, oh
Everything, everything, oh

[Will.I.Am]
You're my always and forever
You're my sunshine
On my mind, constant
Think about you all the time
You're my everything

Everything, everything, oh
Everything, everything, oh

[Will.I.Am]
You my new school (love)
You my old school (love)
And it's so true
You're the one I'm thinking of

You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
(You make the sun come up on a cloudy day
You're my number one, you're my special thing)
You're my every, every, every, everything

Everything, everything, oh
Everything, everything, oh
You are my baby, baby, baby, baby love

Everything, everything, oh
Everything, everything, oh
You're my everything
You are my baby, baby, baby, baby love

Photoshoot

Dear Bloggers

Well, I went to Chiang Khong the other day with my boss.
He is one hell of a photographer!
It was a great chance for me to have my photo taken since we had the same day off.
That day was a little bit cloudy but my boss said it would be ok for the photoshoot.
Well, we did went to Chiang Khong and got many great pictures.




He did said at one point that it was the hardest thing in his life to take my pictures!
I have to admit it, all I can do is funny faces.
I am a funny lady.
That's why you'll never see me on a cover of a magazine or on any big screen.
I do post some of the pics here.
I think I look nice...don't you think?

Amy

How I Got Him and Got Her Out Of My System

Dear Dear

It has been 2 weeks since he got divorced.
We argued 3 times already.
The first one was me being sad that he was not around on the 1st night I moved to my new apartment.
The second one was him forgeting our anniversary...it was the first time we were a real couple...not being secret lovers.
He forgot that and hung out with people who had done nothing but got drunk.
The last time was around a week ago when I found his ex-wife picture in his pocket.
I told him to get rid of it a long time ago.
He did, but somehow that bitch picture found its way back to his pocket!
I was so mad at him for 2 days. He siad I was being unreasonable.
He said it was nothing and US was not gonna work if I could not stop thinking about the negative.
Then I realized...she was not the reason we got into the fight most of the time.
It was us...we need a lot of time to adjust ourselves.
I know it might sound so stupid but if he divorced her for me, then fuck her picture!
He is mine now and I need to stop being so paranoid and enjoy the ride.
It will take a few more months for him to get her out of the system completely.
They had history together...bad time and worse time and maybe happy time as well.
I have to be patient. He is changing his life for US as well.

Before I become a completely nice(r) person let me just get her out of my system by sharing her story here, for reference!
She was having this boyfriend who loved her so much.
She fell for my boyfriend after a few days, let alone the fact that she let him get into her pants a few days after they met. S-L-U-T
(Of course, he was single then and I was a year away from him.)
She never really left her ex-boyfriend but moved in with my boyfriend just to make sure she would be in both guys life, again S-L-U-T!
By the way, my guy own a Vietnamese restaurant and that was the reason she moved in with him.
(He got nice and secure job at The Four Seasons and own a restaurant. Not so bad for a 26-year-old guy right?)
She always told my boyfriend to find some other girls to be #2 girlfriend.
After I moved to this town, I became number one on the list.
She always told him she would defenately go out with me if she was a guy. (THANKS!)
In the meantime, there were many girls who wanted to be with him
(I was not one of those girls though. I was busy falling for My Belly Monster back then!)
She came up with this plan...asked her mom called and forced my guy to marry the bitch or she would gave her daughter to the ex-boyfriend. How bitchy!
My boyfriend was so afraid of losing her then. (D-U-M-B-A-S-S)
He took the bitch to the City Hall and got the wedding certificate on Valentine's.
She started to tell people that there would be a big and wonderful wedding to show the world that she got him.
She took the wedding gown and show pretty much everyone that dress.
(When I said everyone I maen all the customers at the restaurant.)

The wedding never happened cause his mom hated her so much.
She treated the mom badly and once my boyfriend found out he was so mad.
He told her to be nice to his mom or went somewhere to find new job just to stop the fight between the two ladies.
Somewhere between the marriage thing, the mom fight and the job thing, her ex was killed in a car accident.
He was sad and got really drunk one night, he drove his car back from a bar or some place and fell of a bridge. (or something like that!)
She went to the funeral and cried like the one who died was her husband.
She went there every night until the last day of the funeral.
After that she went away from home to start her CAREER.
She didn't pass the probation though.
I heard she got into a filght with her supervisor and HR Manager about her payment.
She told people she was envied because she was SOoooo good and earned a lot of money, more that pretty much everyone at that hotel.
Who would say that? I mean how dumb are you to say that!?!!
(She is still unemploy these days. I feel sad for her actually but her attitude is rotten and no one could help her.)
The relationship went downhill from the moment she steped out of the house.
I think he was so insecure and I happened to be the friend he needed.
We started to talk more and more.
It was hard not to fall for someone who can change your perspective and you can see possibilities and endless oppotunities just by simple conversation.
We decided to stop pretending. Our relationship started in June, 4 months after the wedding certificate.
They decided to call it a quit in October...8 months after that Valentines' Day.

Well, there are so many things I can do to make her unhappy...like posting her picture here, her phone number, her ID number, her e-mail addresses or even her home address here.
I chose not to do that.
From now on she won't have any place left in my memory whatsoever.
I thank her for being who she is and pushing my boyfriend to me.
Hope she finds what she's been looking for eventually, ELSEWHERE.
I won't hate her no more. Hating her will make me unhappy cause it will mean she has influence on me. Some people are just too worthless to be hated.

So long girl, you are no longer exist in our world.
Amy

It's Official...He's Mine

Dear All...

I have a boyfriend now...my boyfriend...mine only.
He is a free man...no wife no nothing...the guy is all mine now.
We are 2 people in this crazy world who try thier best to cherish every minute life brings.
I am in a REAL relationship now.
How relieve? You have no idea!!!

Have I ever thought I would find someone who would sacrify so much just to show me I'm important?
No...not this much.
I made a list..stupid list of things I wanted from him...he somehow managed to gave me almost all of them even the divorce paper.
How can I not love him then?

I pray that our relationship will be as smooth as silk from now on.
I'll do my best to keep him near.
I'll do my best to be a good girlfriend.
I'll do my best...I'll just do my best to make evryday amazing.

Thank you so much God...I know now I'm Blessed.
Amy

Peace Will Come Inside So Quiet

Dear Blogger

My life has been so mess up for months.
It started with my broken ankle, several break ups with the same guy, my cat's injured ear, my sister worst European journey, my dad craziness and my sucky health.
I was hopeless from time to time.
I was sort of happy from time to time.
I feel so peaceful sometimes...not so often but sometimes.

I like the feeling, feeling of peacefulness.
It feels so nice when peace comes inside.
The world seems so small and not scary at all.
I felt that way last night and felt it agian this afternoon while walking back from the far end of The Camp.
I knew right then, the certain feeling I love the most came from within.
Our mind is the best thing God gives us.
It can lead you just about anywhere beyond your imagination.

I think I need to say "Thanks" to Miss Chu, the principle.
She sort of help me with this.
I was inches away from the edge and was ready to jump and be ruined forever.
Then she came for a rescue.
I should have talked to her a long time ago.
Things around me would be easier...
I thank God for the talk.

I'm on my way to be a better person now...at least that what I will do my best.
I will try hard to be nice to everyone I meet...even that other woman.
(Will definately take some time for me to get there, eventually and gracefully.)

Joey was here earlier as well.
He was with me for awhile and I felt peace and saw open doors and never ending happiness that were ahead of me.
Within 2 years..,only 2 years to wait.
I can do that...I am so sure this time.

AT the end of the tunnel, my fulfilled life is waiting.

Amy =)

Emptiness

It feels weird after letting Joey go.

I was mad at him and told him to leave forever.

Now I feel really bad not knowing where he is and if he ever comes back in my life again.

Does it mean all the things he said has gone too?

That would make the future so gloomy and so scary for me!!!

Hope he still wait for me somewhere.

I miss you Joe!

Your Mama

Dear God

Dear God

This is your sheep, Amy.
I have so many things to say to you.
Some are confessions, words to show how greatful I am and of course some prayers.

I need to tell you that I have been lying to Mommy about my relationship.
I know how she feels about the guy, the relationship and the fact that he's married.
Mom hates it so much cause afterall her love one has been stolen.
I am, on the other hand, is a theif, stealing other woman husband.
I am not pround of that at all.
I am everything Mommy hates. I am everything I hated my whole life.
I am nothing but a low-life whore who is not even good enough to be THE ONE AND ONLY.
But why am I doing it?
Maybe because I look at him and I smile.
My heart beats faster, happier just to think of him.
Being with him, holding him tight is what I want to do.
Is this love? Am I really in love?
Maybe I am. The question is does he love me enough to make me THE ONE AND ONLY?

God, apart from the sad story above, I need to thank you.
I asked for love and you gave it to me.
Not the way I expected though.
But who am I to complain?
It is always better to love and lost than never loved at all, right?
Although it would be nicer to take all the pain of sharing him away...
The ride will be so plaesant without worrying all the time what happen when I'm out of the picture.
That's what kiiling me every waking day.

Then agian you heal my inside.
I have no serious illness (beside unbearable amount of stressfulness.)
I'm glad I'm doing ok, physically.
Thank you for that.
I'm glad my Dad is finally started to realize that I have been having a very hard life providing all the money and other stuff for Mom and my sis.
Hope this me being the head of the house will soften him and he will somehow take some action and make my life easier and happier.
And I'm also so thankful that my sis survived all the tasks you gave her.
She is now on the way to the glory land. Good for her.

Last but not least, some prays from me yours truly.
I pray that you remember to get me out of here in one piece as soon as possible.
It is too painful for me to stay here.
If you can't take me out yet...kindly stop my pain of being another woman.
I can ask you to get her out or make him choose me but walking away is easier.
Afterall, Joe told me the guy would never leave her.
No matter what he says, he loves her and they were made for each other.
They will always be together and I will fade away soon.
That's why I'm begging you God to help me.
Please take me to the place where I can be truly happy.
The place where I can find a HOME for my love, mine only, home for Joey and HOME for me.
I just want the man that always be there when I need him.
A man that I can call my own.
Someone I can have and hold for all my life.
I dont want to share my love with anyone again ever.
Is it too much to ask?
I hope not...

Thank you so much God for your time.
I pray to you in the name of The Lord Jesus Crist.
AMEN

Your Sheep, Amy